Updating again, because I think I did just yesterday, but I'm doing it again today because I can. And the feels are the feels and it's easier to get out a journal than it "is" to get out a lit. piece. That's technically not true but I don't want to grapple with what character, in what scenario, and what setting should be written and all that jazz.
I behaved a little delta G- today. I wound up spontaneously (see, what I did there? ) deciding to skip Calc. after about an hour of finding out that my Calc tutor had cancelled the session for today. I was sort of just sitting in the cold outer science building hallway mumbling about "I don't want to go to Calc..." and then suddenly realizing: "What a second, I could skip! LEGASP"
Not to do nothing though I was feeling pretty damn tired and just felt like if I went to class I was bound to fall asleep and that hey, I could find out what we did, look through the book between now and Thurs, even find videos or articles etc about it and work based off of that (since we have the discussion hour on Thursday anyhow). AND I realized I could use the extra hour to study for Chem more.
So I did.
Even met up with another friend which proved most helpful of all and it worked out pretty nicely.
Then in Chem (during my exam) I got pretty damn tired, but I did feel that the middle portion of the multiple choice was my best but the ending of (6 questions) wasn't so great and points sort of dwindled off from there... I think I messed up the titration pH question because I got confused part way through if I was trying to find the pH of an acid or a base (I think thinking it was base was the wrong one, oops)
I feel like I'm gonna wind up having to retake Chem. Not that happy about that. I'm either going to outright fail, get anywhere in a D or amazingly get a C-. I don't know. It's not looking good for me though. I suppose that's a biased opinion, though. (Since I'm leaving out certain information not only to you guys but likely to myself too.)
I was reflecting this morning about how I wish it wasn't so easy to give up. To admit defeat. Because god damn, it's EASY. It's so much harder and taxing to NOT do it though. I can always build it up for a while but then I just short circuit and take the easy road again... Like thinking of how -- Hmmm, it seems as though I've forgotten my train of thought there xD
But yeah, it's easy to just fall through the cracks. It's much harder to work your way up through the slime and grit. It's harder to SEE the light beyond your initial perception. (I.e. when you're looking but not seeing)
... I also decided because of the tutor cancelling today that I could/would stay late for a biology study group. I thought it ran from 5:00pm to 7:00pm but it's actually 5:30, which works out better now because my mom has offered to just pick up AT school so I can still wind up staying until 7pm. It won't be the full two hours as I had suspected but it's definitely better than the 10 minutes I could have only managed taking the 6:03 train and I guess technically with the 8:13 I would have made it all but blegh.
Then I would be home late and....
Now it's just time to study and apply for Bio. I have a discussion POGIL to do for Chem for tomorrow (hopefully that's up tonight), 2 study credits for Psych to do and studying for my lab practical. I forgot too that tomorrow I don't have my 12pm break because I want to attend a Psych conference thingy about graduate/undergrad research and opportunities and such =]
Which reminds me, I should double check where that's going on...
Other than that, as I wandered over to the Quinn building where I am seated right now, I was staring quite longingly and desperately at the photography-ness of the sunset/environment. I really want to do some photos again and I'm contemplating making Friday a night for one last (or second to last? Gotta figure that out) night shoot. I'm not sure if I should bring my tripod or not though... but if I'm here for sunset than I might as well have it in mind? I feel at worst I could use the club's... gotta try it out sometime! XD
Speaking of, I think I need to email our advisor about the ink orders... because we need to print those and such too. And I should try and do that on Monday/this Friday or so...
If I bring my camera on Wed (at least I could do a afternoon photoshoot) I'll have it for my Bio exam which oddly enough but not on purpose or anything, I've had my camera every Bio exam But yeah. If I have my tripod that's adding more though...and I'll have my laptop to begin with.... I'll have to contemplate it more I suspect. Px
But yeah I'm feeling the desire for some photos... I think I may try to upload the photos from the past shoot tonight if not in another gap of time soon. Or maybe upload one teaser-y photo or something. Not sure. I want to work on my Psych credit thing now.
Until later, my friends.
(Also, it was just my luck today for one of my nails to crazily break, and for that to finally also break and leave me with a jagged end. =/ And I should really clean my glasses oooof. )